Wish Me Luck :D

Hi everyone :)

This is just a random post! Just want to get some stuff off my mind, and that is - PANIC!! God, its exams! Final year final semester! The BIG one!! And, to say the least, I am absolutely not prepared! Was too much involved with a lot of things - parents being back home , the Pea being on shore, 'meet-his-parents' dinner (PKC...Pennu Kaanal Chadangu! Lol..I'l write on that one, after exams) and blah blah! Now, it seems things have slipped out of my hands... Exams begin tomorrow (17 Feb) and I got no clues what to do!! *Wails*

Guess, I need to sign off, shut off my system, and get learning...Right? Yeah I know. But it seems so hard to do :D Hehe. Just want to say please do pray for me :P Only resort now, is that!! *Sigh!!*

So friends, Wish me Luck!! :) And I need Prayers too!!! Hopefully, I'll be back with a post , after my exams! (March 6, I have my last paper) Till then, all Love!

God Bless!! :)

Frankly speaking, I have never really cared about Valentine's Day! To me it is just another commercial tactic to swoon in customers - be it the cards n gift galleries, ice cream parlors, coffee shops, shopping malls and blah blah blah! It is that time of the year when guys carry their hearts on their sleeves (yeah, literally- all those heart shaped bands on the wrists, I hate them!) and the girls don pinks and reds (No, I ain't saying its wrong! But, why specially this time of the year, it becomes a style statement?) , both the genders carrying teddies and cards and gifts!! A season for fretting over gifts and worrying over budgets- all the discs n pubs n hangouts being dolled up a tad too over the board. It seems a pain, to enter a coffee shop for a cup of coffee with friends and you are suddenly surrounded by balloons in heart shapes, and all the glitterati...! It seems as though Christmas has come early. Just that instead of Santa, it is Cupid with his love-bow! Sigh! Give me a break!!

Now, its not like I am prejudiced or conservative or er...drab boring. No. It is all about, why does one day have to be so special for Love? Love is such a beautiful sentiment right from the heart, all about sharing and all about togetherness and kindness and faith and everything that two hearts could share, all smiles! Love is omnipresent. Then why do we go overboard about Valentine's Day? I just fail to grasp the idea. I know some of us might come up with excuses - In the busy schedule of life, we may not get time to take out special moments to share and bond, in love. So such a day, makes everyone aware of what they have been missing, and makes it a simple way to express those feelings, hidden behind the pile of work files, and day-to-day tensions. It is a time to come out in the open and love, with out inhibitions. I do agree, in this hectic world, we often fail to make time for our loved ones. But I ask you, why does it have to be this way? If there weren't Valentine's day, wouldn't people have taken the effort and time out, to be with loved ones, to spend quality time with family and friends and love?? Wouldn't they have?? I strongly believe, they would. In spite of all limitations, they would do that special bit, for that special someone. And more often than once a year, for sure!!

I believe that I would never want go out on Valentine's day with Mr.Pea. Because, we would want to spend some time together, away from the clatter and clutter, of a noisy tribe, celebrating something, just for the sake of celebrations. Instead, I'd like to be with my dear ones, loved just as much as any other day of the calender, and sharing the beautiful feeling of Love, all through, with just us, and ours. And while the world goes ga-ga over a Valentine's Day, we'd be waking up to the same sun rays, and sipping the normal routine coffee and having the same silly tiffs, pouting and then making up; going for work, and getting home, for a quiet dinner and going to sleep, thinking how much more blessed could we be, for, we share the Love of a lifetime!! And to me, no day could beat that one! :)

Foot note: Happy Valentine's Day to believers! And Happy Loving to the rest!! hehehe!! :)

It all happened yesterday. And near our Institute of Maternal and Child Health(IMCH), a wing of Calicut Medical College. A two and a half year old girl was brutally raped last night, in the vicinity of the IMCH. The victim and her parents are street dwellers, and the mother was in labor last night, when the unfortunate (heinous) crime occurred. The child was found missing in the night, and the search began since then. The mother delivered another baby girl, while the father went on a frantic search. The child was found near the sidewalk, adjacent to a milk booth, in the wee hours of the morning. This event has been so shocking, that it is a child, whom I have seen quite so much, since they live near our college, on the streets. I can't digest this news, nor can i even think of someone actually raping a two year old. Could anything be worse than this? I am left speechless. I just had to share this with someone, and so I am here penning this out. Have an exam at 2 pm..I'll be walking by the child, once again...And I'll never be peaceful near the milk booth, where we go for coffee during late evenings and after classes. Everything seems nightmarish right now. I'll be back in the evening to fill in this space. Till then, I hope I can give my exams proper in such a state of mind :(

P.S # I had promised I'd be back...But, I ain't in great spirits to write any further.So, I'd just stop here.


I just went through the post by IHM regarding the trivialization of sexual abuses against women. It is indeed so pathetic, the fact that our society can still laugh at sexual abuses, and even worse, find a sadistic pleasure in victimizing the ill-fated. "Inviting trouble", " Provocative Dressing" - phrases to justify the heinous crime of sexual abuse? I fail to understand, why does the society pay no heed to the serious offense against women? Why does it become a social stigma, to fight for oneself and one's rights and ideals? The so called educated people would rather ignore and avoid facing such an issue. Imagine the fate of those people in the rural areas of the country, where exploitation is almost like a routine incident. Pathetic, ain't this society where we dwell in? I know that typing out a few words of disgust and anger, doesn't help. But, maybe, it can give a perspective to someone who hasn't thought of this ever. Someone who's been lucky enough to have never come across this. And for the sake of public awareness, I'd like to share a true event, that I have been destined to witness.

Being a part of the medical fraternity, I have come across quite a lot of cases of sexual abuses, brought into our Hospital. Some, that have been out in public, and some, that hasn't. It was in the third year of college, during a ward posting at OBS-GYN, that I came across a case of brutal rape. The victim ( I shall call her K), K, a child of mere 11, was brought into the ER, with a case of severe injuries. I remember being there, witnessing the entire procedure. Her frail little body was torn apart, by the brutal assault by her 71 year old grandfather. The girl was brought in unconscious, with abrasions and concussions all over. We were at a loss initially, not knowing how to handle something so traumatic. We were just required to take case history and stuff, as a part of our curriculum. But watching, was traumatic enough.

The entire medical evaluation took a few hours. For, the lesions and bruises had been severe. Apart from genital injuries , the extra genital injuries included a broken rib and acute pancreatitis. After hours of cleaning and stitching up, she was moved into the Post-Operative ICU. I remember going to the canteen after the procedure, to have something to drink. But none of us ever uttered a word, nor could we even take a sip of water. The terror and the trauma, we suffered witnessing the event, is still fresh. I still remember the events so sickening.

After a week, she was moved to the general ward, and for the first time I saw her conscious, during one of the rounds with the residents. We, the students, are required to select a few cases according to our preference and take detailed a case history of each- which includes the personal history of the patient, the symptoms, conditions, vital stat tests and then come to a conclusion regarding the diagnosis and the treatment. And in most cases, there erupts serious fights for any case out of the ordinary. It was just the same here too. Every student wanted this case, and the constant ruthless questioning and re accounting of the traumatic events made some of us sick. Finally, after a lot of conversations(read- cat fights), we managed to stop these sessions of torture. As though she could tolerate more of trauma, esp by the so called healers.

I know that the physical injuries fade away with time. But what of the acute mental and emotional damage, that has befallen upon the victim, a child, no more than 11. The age when one learns, and builds one's personality and future, has been snatched away from this little girl.And the one who she had trusted to be family, has ripped away her self respect, her dreams, her future. And yet, she has to go back to the rat hole, as though, nothing ever happened. How sick, is that?

K, told some of us that she wants to go back to school, and that her mother has asked her to forget the event, and go back to the very same house where her grandfather stays. I couldn't utter a word. How is anyone expected to forget such an incident? How could anyone wipe it away? And worse, how could any mother ask her child to walk right back into danger? Despite the counseling sessions and the promise of help by NGO's, the mother refused to move K out of the house. And, I remember having to watch the little girl leave hospital after a few weeks, with the same insane and inhumane, pervert S-O-B grandfather(Can't help the abusive language. Animals like him can't be addressed as anything but that). I still can't forget the look on her face, when she was leaving the hospital.

For those wondering, a case was indeed registered by the police. But the victim and her family never agreed to file a case, in person though.

Some of these experiences makes one lose all faith in humanity, if something of that sort, ever does exist. But after a while, everything sinks back into the hidden folds of memory. And none but the victims, would remember something of this sort had happened, once. That is I guess, human nature... And despite of all the guilt and anger I'd felt then wasn't reminded of K, until today, when I read IHM's post. And, once again that guilt and hurt, has surfaced. But I know, sadly, it wouldn't last long.

Shameless, ain't we??

Here is another tag, this time, from Prabhu. I hope it gets to be as much fun as the earlier tags!! :

  • What does your user name mean?
Adorablesasha!! It just says Sasha is adorable :P (narcissism!! lol)

  • Elaborate on your user photo.
Well...That is a couple of months old... There is me, on my table, surrounded with all my usual junk. (Books included!!)

  • How many comments do you have?
Errr.... I have no clues! And am dead lazy to go back n count! The previous post has 9 comments! I guess that would do. *innocent-look* :D

  • What's your current relationship status?
Self-proclaimed Married!! But in real, the status would be In a relationship, waiting to be engaged!! :P (Desperate eh? yeah!! sigh :D)

  • What exactly are you wearing right now?
Oopz! I am juz out of bed...So, am wearing a pink three-fourths and a blue T-shirt :D

  • What is your current problem?
Hmmmm... EXAMS!! Dead worried about exams, and yet I am here, leisurely typing all this out, getting a tag done! God, when would someone get some sense into me, I wonder?!??!

  • What do you love the most?
Myself? :D

  • What makes you most happy?
Being with loved ones :) And of recent, whenever I see a satellite call ID flashing on my cell phone!! That makes me the most happy!! :)

  • Are you musically inclined?
Well...Quite a bit, I'd rather say! dance and music goes hand in hand anyways! So, yea, I guess I am musically inclined!!

  • What would you do if you woke up one morning and found out you were on cocaine?
Check if am not out of stock by any chance :D

  • If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
There is something I'd like to change. But that is a wee bit personal. So let it be :)

  • If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what would you be?
A frogggyyyyy!! Hehe :P

  • Ever had a near-death experience?
Thankfully, none! *Touch wood*

  • Name an obvious quality you have.
Tolerance!! I have a very high threshold for tolerance! Don't lose my temper any soon! And people find me cheerful most of the time! So I guess that's it :)

  • What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
Kenny Roger's My World Is Over

I didn't look over my shoulder
I wasn't ready for this
Didn't see the signs over the horizon
I was so sure that you would never leave
But you did

So sweep away the sand, and tide, the ocean, and just
Pack the moon and stars up in a cardboard box, and
Stop the clouds from chimin'
Block the sun from shinin'
Paint the sky a deeper shade of blue
Cause my world's over without you

I know I should just keep goin'
But I don't know where to start
I never thought I'd see the day when
You'd go and leave me here with my broken heart,
But you did


Maybe someday all the pain will fade
Maybe this hurt will slowly slip away
Maybe some days will never change
And I'll still love you

Stop the clouds from chimin'
Block the sun from shinin'
Paint the sky a deeper shade of blue
Cause my world's over without you

My world's over without you..

Stop the clouds from chimin'
Stop the clouds from chimin'
Block the sun from shinin'
Block the sun from shinin'
Are you happy today?

  • Name someone with the same birthday as you.
José Saramago- He is the author of my all time favorite novel - Blindness!! So, I just get extremely hyper that we happen to share our birthday!!

  • Do you have a secret crush on someone?
Naaah! Its no secret now :P

  • Do you have a garbage disposal in your kitchen sink?
Guess not! I mean I don't know :D

  • Have you ever been in a fight?
I thought that one is quite obvious! The answer is YES!! And most times, its been fun :P

  • Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
Say, 60-70 people would count as a large audience? If that is true, then the answer is Yes!! But itz in school..lolz!!

  • What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
The attitude and personality, how he carries himself!

  • What's your biggest mistake?
Hmmm... I have no clues which one it is :P

  • Say something totally random about you.

  • Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Yeah! Have heard that one quite a few times :D Juz dont ask which one!!

  • Are you comfortable with your height?
Naaah!! Wish I were taller!! Sigh!

  • What is the most romantic thing someone has ever done for you?
Carry a strand of my hair in his wallet for 6 months!!! That felt crazy and yet, romantic, to me!! Hehe :P (I don't know if it can be considered as something done "for" me though!! Hehe)

  • What are your favourite smells?
Davidoff Cool water, His aftershave, Smell of petrol, Fresh brewed coffee.
  • What's something that really annoys you?
Inconsiderate people, they really bug the hell out of me!

  • What's something you really like?
The smile on a baby's face :)

  • Do you give random hugs and kisses?
Nopes, I don't really!

  • What's the latest you have ever stayed up?
Have gone without sleep for a max of 48 hours, without even blinking an eyelid!! But then, 24 hours of being up, is pretty common during exams! Yea, I know, am getting nearer to having one of those!!

  • Have you ever been rushed to the emergency room?
Yes! But in a different context though!!

Now, to pass the tag on:




Am tagged by Usha mema for this one! Lets see how I end up doing it :P

The rule goes thus-I'm supposed to be pasting an image for every answer of mine,from the first page of google image search,with minimal explanation.

  • The age you will be in your next birthday:
Errr...Its said that you shouldn't ask a lady her age...! :D But then, I might as well share mine- 24!!
  • A place you’d like to travel to:Bora Bora, Tahiti! An island surrounded by a lagoon and a barrier reef...A mystic land of golden sands and bluest of waters...! Ah, I feel like getting away right away :P

  • Your Favorite place:
Home, sweet home!! There's no where else I'd rather be! The warmest nest, that I'd never ever wanna leave...That is home for me! :)

  • Your favorite food/drink:
A glass of Ice Cold Water! There's nothing to beat that one..Cool and soothing, it just rejuvenates me, to the maximum. Being the no-tea-no-coffee-no soft drink-no beverage person that I am( unless its exams -coffee or somewhere out with friends- soft drinks), water is just the perfect drink :)

Your favorite pets:

Puggyyyyy...! I sure ain't someone whom Maneka Gandhi would be pleased to meet :P For, I have absolutely no positive inclination to pets.I am literally scared (yea, I am :P) of all sorta animals. Even a kitten can scare me off my wits :D But, since the other pea is an ardent pet lover, we have had our share of arguments regarding the matter of keeping a pet later on. Finally, I have agreed to give in, for a Pug! Courtesy the Hutch ad! Hehe!

  • Your favorite color combination: Black and Red!! That, for me, is a killer combination. Dangerously exciting, and yet dead solid :)
  • Your favorite piece of clothing:
Well even my blog says it out loud!! Blue Jeans!! With a White Shirt...!! Nothing can beat that one!! :)
  • Your all time favorite songs:

Enigma - The Child in Us. Enigma has been my all time favorite in music. This track, The Child in Us, transports me to a mystic realm of calm and it relaxes my senses, always! Sharing the lyrics here:

prasanna vadanaaM saubhaagyadaaM bhaagyadaaM
hastaabhyaaM abhayapradaaM maNigaNair-
naanaavidhair-bhuushhitaaM who is of smiling face, bestower of all fortunes,
whose hands are ready to rescue anyone from fear,
who is adorned by various ornaments with precious stones
Puer natus est nobis,
et filius datus est nobis:
cujus emperium super humerum...
For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given:
and the government will be upon his shoulder..
Some day you came
And I knew you were the one
You were the rain, you were the sun
But I needed both, cause I needed you
You were the one
I was dreaming of all my life
When it is dark you are my light
But don't forget
Who's always our guide
It is the child in us

The translation:

Who is of smiling face, bestower of all fortunes,
Whose hands are ready to rescue anyone from fear,
Who is adorned by various ornaments with precious stones )

Puer natus est nobis,
Et filius datus est nobis:
Cujus emperium super humerum... for to us a child is born,
To us a son is given:
And the government will be upon his

Some day you came
And I knew you were the one
You were the rain, you were the sun
But I needed both, cause I needed you
You were the one
I was dreaming of all my life
When it is dark you are my light
But don’t forget
Who’s always our guide
It is the child in us.
  • Your favorite TV show:
Am not into watching the idiot box, unless am left with nothing to do!! But if at all i tend to watch TV, it has to be the cartoon series, Popeye, the sailor man! Juz adore it..hehe!! *innocent-look* :D

  • Full name of your significant other:
Well... I'd rather not put the name right out here...Let's call him Mr.Pea... The "other" pea of the pod! Courtesy, Usha mema!! Hehehe! :D
  • The town in which you live in:
Well...The land where Vasco da Gama first landed in 1498. That ought to say enough, I guess! Else, just revise your history lessons at school. Hehe:P

  • Your screen name/nickname:
Sashu...!!! :)

  • Your first job:
Since am still at college, I haven't had a first job, till date! Hopefully soon!! :)

  • Your Dream Job:

To have a Drug Discovery by my name :) Research in Drug Design and Toxicology seems to something that I'd love to be associated with. Maybe, someday....!!! :)

  • Bad Habit you have:
Nail biting! Yea, I still bite my nails, at times..It's an On-off bad habit of mine. Need to stop doing it though..Sigh!

  • Your worst fear:
Losing loved ones... :(

  • The one thing you’ll like to do before you die:
Publish my own book!! Hehe! I have no clues regarding what sort of book - poetry/novel/biography...And I really don't care which one :P Just know that I'd love to have one on my name! If wishes were horses....! Lol :P

  • The first thing you’ll buy if you get $1,000,000:
Well, it is something I would buy even if I don't get $1,000,000...Hehe! Its a Rolex Watch for my Dad. Something he wouldn't get for himself, ever. He considers even the tiniest of indulgences, an extravagance, when it happens to be something, for him! And yet, he never ever fails to smile even after I blow up a bundle on any of my crazy whims!! That's my dad dear, and for him, I'd wanna get his favorite watch! And pretty soon too!! Just wanna start earning...For that I need to get out of college...And for that I need to clear my exams... By the way, I have my final exams from Feb 17... So, people, what are you waiting for? Start praying for me :P

Well, am done with this tag too! It sure was fun :) I have cheated with the image part though...It ain't always from the first page of google search :D Couldn't help it. *Grins*!!!

This is a tag from Rukhiya, and its been a helluva long time since I've been tagged by her...Firstly let me apologize for the delay. Hmmm... The tag is all about what holding hands mean to us. Let me try to put my thoughts into words, here!

For me holding hands is a simple expression of a lovely sentiment- Love. It may come out in different hues:

- Care : A gentle touch, a holding of hands...It shows how much you care for a person.It makes one feel safe and secure, peaceful and loved.

- Affection:
When you smile or pout or just be, and someone dear just catches hold of your hand and gives it a gentle squeeze, I bet, it feels so wonderful...To know that you are adored, and the heart is so full of affection for you... It just adds a glow, doesn't it?

- Security: Imagine walking along a deserted lane, say at night, and you want to be brave, and yet there's just a hint of uneasiness in you, which you do not mention about. And despite the fact that you haven't given out what is in your mind, that dear someone holds your hand, without even a word shared...It says out so loud "I care for you. And I don't want any harm to befall on you..."

- Faith: When you take a real hard stance over something in life, against the norms and preexisting monotony of life, and you want nothing but some faith. And that holding of hands, just redeems your faith, in yourself. And it comes as a solid pillar, of trust, of hope, of belief and faith!

- Love: Always special, holding hands is like a promise, of sharing, and being there, for each other, through thick and thin...It makes one feel how lucky one is- to have found one's hand twin ( Rukhiya, I borrowed your phrase!! ) Truly blissful, the feeling!

Well, that is all about holding hands...! Be free to add your views along, if you'd like :)